Sunday, December 13, 2009

So, what happens next?

Yes, now it's definitely official - I'm completely approved to join Student Venture! I was jetting around on my last SU recruitment trip in NYC and was so excited to get the word from Warren & Lynn that all my final paperwork (medical, psychological, and background check) was approved. Yep - I like to think I'm sane, healthy, and not a closet criminal...and the officials think so too! hahahaha =)

What happens next...
(Synopsis:)
1) *Tell the boss (done!)
2) *Tell the room mates (done!)
3) *Prep the move (doing now!)
4) *Go to FL for 1 month training (Jan 4-Feb 7, 2010)
5) *Return to Syracuse for MPD (Ministry Partnership Development)
6) Move to FL when full funding is secured
7) Only God knows...!

(*Read on for Details! Details! Details!)
1) Tell the boss: I actually told my boss the day after I got my acceptance (12/2/09) that I was putting in my 1 month's notice at work. It was both a scary and encouraging time as I heard my boss express his happiness for me, and as his "dad-mode" kicked in and he asked me lots of questions too. I was so touched, and very glad to have things out in the open. It did make it feel so surreal when the official memo went out to ALL the office staff about my having accepted a new position elsewhere. People were so encouraging and positive, it really reinforced my love for all these wonderful people I've come to know and treasure after working at SU for 5+ years.

My official last day in the office will be Dec 23rd. My official last day as a Univer
sity employee will be January 1, 2010. WOW, huh?! It's kind of scary to think about leaving a job that seems so secure, certain, and the "logical choice" that society and family and others would say I should hold on to. But, what I know is that I told God I'd follow Him wherever he led, and I'm doing that regardless of the cost because He's worth giving it all up for - there's nothing I've found that satisfies and brings joy or fulfilment like what I've found in my relationship with God! So, here we go...onward!

2) Tell the roommates: I told my 2 roommates and they were happy for me...and then we realized the reality of our having to find someone to sublet the apartment in the Spring because my plan is to move back to my parents' house to save money during my upcoming support-raising months. We put an ad onto craigslist and got a bunch of possible leads. Things are looking good - but keep praying. I'm still trusting God to come through as He's promised.

3) Prepare the "move": My brain starts reeling a bit when I even think about having to move from my current cozy apartment to my parents' house. I have SO much stuff to move! And, after 3 years of living in my own place, it's going to be an adjustment living back at home. But, I know it's going to be important and good for me to spend time with my family before I move to FL. But, goodness gracious - I started to clean today, but didn't get far as I felt kind of daunted by all the stuff I'm gonna have to remove from this place. =P

4) Go to FL for training (Jan 4-Feb 7, 2009): I'm super excited about training!! I already bought most of my books online at Amazon, have joined the facebook group for the New Staff Training (and subsequently "friended" all the 37 people in that group! hahah - hope they don't think I'm crazy...hehehe), and took the leap and bought a plane ticket. Training will be in Daytona Beach, FL at a conference center. It's gonna be interesting, though, because I signed up for a 3-4 person room (it's much cheaper than the 2 person room), and I have NO IDEA who I'll be paired with. Also, the funds I need to raise (approx $4000) for Training will be covering things like food, transportation, books (for classes), and other ministry expenses. But, I believe that God has already been preparing financial support for me - and it's just about where it will come from...not if it will come in. So, I look forward to sharing praise reports with you about that as things unfold. =)

5) Return to Syracuse to start MPD: I'll return to Syracuse after New Staff Training end
s in February so I can start talking with people (hopefully you!) to share more in depth about what this call to ministry means and see if you are feeling led to partner with me. This will be a precious time for me as I learn to trust God to put it on peoples' hearts to invest into this ministry He's called me to - either financially and/or in prayer. Regardless, I'd love at least the chance to meet or talk with you to share about what God's doing and will be doing in my ministry, see if and or how you feel led to partner with me, and keep in touch with you during and after my move to FL.

Let's keep in touch!
If you have not already done so, please e-mail me at
gahlai@gmail.com with your mailing address and phone #, what you're up to, and any prayer requests you may have. Let me know what's going on in your life too! I hope to hear from you soon.

Thank you =)

In joyful pursuit of Him,
Kar-Lai

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Praise God! It's good to move forward...=-)

YAAAAH! As of 10pm tonight (Dec 1, 2009) via an e-mail acceptance letter, I am now "pre-accepted" to join Student Venture! Which basically means I now just have to fill out a few more forms for the sake of making sure I've a clean bill of health (mentally, physically, & background check-wise) needed for this job. Regardless, I'm just so overwhelmed with excitement, relief, and a healthy dose of trepidation at the unknown - but most of all, I'm excited because it confirms for me that I am headed in the right direction and correctly following God's leading!

Honestly, I waited all of yesterday and today with pins and needles on my heart, waiting to hear whether or not my application had been accepted/approved. And, after a great bible study last night where we listened to Mike Bicklen of Kansas City IHOP (International House of Prayer) talk about waiting on God and allowing Him to intervene in situations, I was well prepared today to step back and be patient and show that I've really entrusted all of this to God. Admittedly, I was very tempted several times today to take control of the situation and call or text someone here or there to get an answer, but then I was reminded that I told God I'd trust Him to provide me with His answer in His timing in His way...so I held back. And it was so worth it!! Because I can now say that I have waited on the Lord to answer me, and He has come through with the answer!

Waiting on God"But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me." ~ (Micah 7:7, NIV)

At the beginning of this year, I had a strong feeling that "this would be a year of change" - but I had no idea what it would entail...all I could do was wait, like the verse says. I've actually had the Micah 7:7 verse on my wall for at least half a year now. Now, when I think back on the past year or two, I see that all the striving I'd done on my own to "take charge of my future, my career, etc." was so much more difficult (& unfruitful!) than allowing God to show me the direction to go in! It's like God allowed me to go through all the stubborn-headed strivings of interviewing for different jobs I thought I should go for, or striving for a master's degree in what I thought I'd want, and so on - just so I could exhaust my "to do" list and give up control of my future, career, relationships, etc. to Him and really begin to understand what it means to wait and watch in hope for God to hear and answer me.

Sure, if I didn’t get accepted to SV, the road might seem like a much easier and comfortable road because I’d stay in my comfort zone. However, now that I'm accepted to join staff, I know I’m not “in the clear” per say because the road ahead will be wrought with more struggles, nail-biting times of uncertainty and faith-stretching, trust-building situations. But I am confident that God will follow through on his promises like he said he would in Jeremiah 29:10-14 ~
“"10 This is what the LORD says: 'When seventy years are completed for Babylon, I will come to you and fulfill my gracious promise to bring you back to this place. 11 For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,' declares the LORD, 'and will bring you back from captivity. [b] I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,' declares the LORD, 'and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.'"

I feel like God has allowed me to grow and learn in my season of wilderness these past few years, and now he has reminded me of the hope I can have in Him when I entrust my future and present and past to Him. And, if God’s promised that he's got a plan for my life, I’d much rather follow HIS big plan instead of my little plans! God dreams much bigger for us than we ever could...so I'm truly excited to follow His lead this time in an unforeseen adventure.

And here we go!
Thank you for walking with me through this adventure!! It’s just the beginning…so hang in there – it’s gonna be AWESOME to see what happens next! =) And please – do keep praying and asking me questions and keeping me accountable as I move forward with the Lord. I treasure your thoughts and prayers, and love to hear updates on your lives too.

Till next time, may we be found always...

In pursuit of Him,
Kar-Lai
gahlai@gmail.com

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Waiting...Part of the "Great Adventure"

So, why is the waiting part so difficult after we take a step of faith and put ourselves "out there" for something big?

Yeah. Well, I'm both excited and a bit nervous about this waiting and "big changes" thing...it's been a good few weeks now since I submitted my application. There were a few loose ends to tie up (like getting 2 references resubmitted because they got lost somehow through the mail, but I had them send it via e-mail and that was quicker), but all in all, it feels good to have it in God's hands in this way. I've been finishing out my recruitment season with trips to Philadelphia (my parents spent that weekend with me, which was nice because it fell over my 31st birthday - so we celebrated together by having Chinese food (like in the photo) for dinner, instead of me being alone!) and one more to NYC (in December) as I await "THE DECISION" from Student Venture.

Actually, as part of (pretty) standard procedures, last Monday, Nov 23rd, I spoke with Lynn, the Campus Crusade for Christ (CCC) person who's reviewing my application. She had some questions for me about my application and I was glad to speak with her. She kindly clarified a few things that I'd answered as "I'm not exactly sure, but I think it's..." when I filled out the Doctrinal Questionnaire. (That Questionnaire has some tough questions in it - especially since you're not allowed to reference the Bible while you're completing the questions! hehe.) We spoke also a bit about some of the things I'd shared in the "Moral Convictions Questionnaire" and how I admit to still being a work-in-progress in God's hands at this time (as all of us are works-in-progress, eh?).

I also felt like God really gave me the chance to speak with Lynn so I could ask her some questions about her experiences as staff at CCC and SV - because she's worked both in the field as an SV staff worker in 2 cities and now as a staff member at the CCC Headquarters. She's also been working with CCC for 23 years through her single and married years (now married to someone in ministry too, and has 4 kids) - so she had some really helpful and encouraging insights as to how God's called her and brought her through all of these years and seasons of her life. Both for her and her husband over these years, they've seen God do wonderful things and provide in so many ways too. Just having that time to talk with her was really so nice! After the conversation, I can still say with confidence that I feel like the door still remains open and I will continue to walk forward and through that door as the Lord wills - or until he closes that door. (photo = doorway/entryway to SV Headquarters)
A cool thing is that I had been wondering about exactly when the dates are for the upcoming 5 week training, should I be approved to join as staff. Lynn didn't know the details, so she said she'd look into it for me. After we finished the hour long conversation, I saw that completely different CCC staff member had e-mailed me DURING the conversation with Lynn and provided me with all the information about the training session I needed! God does answer prayers even before we pray them =)

Of course, in the grand scheme of things, I understand that anything can happen, and for any various unforeseen reasons, my application could be turned down...so I'm trying to wait on God to give me that final green light that will unlock so many other things that are hinging upon this decision/piece of information: giving my 1 month's notice to my job, landing some part time work, registering for the January 5 week training session in FL, finding someone to sublet my apartment for the Spring semester, raising support and funding for the traning session and to become a full time staff person...and so on, and so forth. =P Needless to say, I can certainly use all the prayer anyone can spare...but at the same time, I know whatever happens, I still give God praise and glory for how he's sustained me and strengthened me throughout these past 5 months (wow! that flew by!) as all this was unfolding.

I still don't know what's going to happen, but I see that each time I tell someone about this and what's unfolding, I keep feeling this sense of "Wow, God, this is what it's like to have an adventure with you, huh?" =) How amazing to be reminded of how God leads us on adventures - like when Abraham left everything to follow God's call on his life into a new land, even when he didn't know where the destination was...or when Joshua followed God's call to enter into the Promised Land...or when the fishermen and tax collectors and other men were called by Jesus to leave everything and follow him - - they left everything to pursue what was greater!! And I want to live out faith like that! I want to pour out my life for God however he dictates and follow him because He's worth it!
I should hear from CCC/Lynn by this Monday, Nov 30th, about the decision on my application. Please pray that God's will be done. =)

Thank you for joining in my journey...till next time, may we always be -
In pursuit of Him,
Kar-Lai

Sunday, November 1, 2009

The latest news - & btw: my app is finally out in the universe!

Praise God – it’s done; I finally finished my application! I FedEx’d it last week so the headquarters would get it on Friday the 30th. I spoke to Mike at headquarters and he says it might take around 2-3 weeks for a decision to be made on my application…so now, I wait and pray.

App Stuff: Truly, it was quite a challenge, finishing this 70 page (!) application in the midst of a very busy recruitment and travel season at work. It was admittedly very difficult to find time in between the week long trips I’ve already had (Boston and San Francisco). Those weeks were always packed with high school visits and interviews that took me from 5:30am-8:00pm sometimes. By the time I’d finish with a day of visits and interviews, and managed to get a bite to eat, it would be time to go to sleep. Then, coming back into the office was a whole other type of crazy because so many other staff would be out traveling, we’d have a skeleton crew on tap to do the daily tasks of answering e-mails, phone calls, greeting the public with information sessions and conducting (yes) more interviews of prospective students. One would be lucky to find any time to get home and do some laundry during the week and repack quickly enough to be ready to go out again the following week to another city for more of the same. I’m in Princeton, NJ this week and then I'm off to Philly, PA the third week of November. (Fun fact: I’ll have the interesting privilege of turning 31 in the city of brotherly love…my goodness…how time flies. =P hehe)


Other Fun/Music Stuff: It’s been equally exciting these past few months as my band mates in the worship team I’m on have been practicing constantly in preparation for being the opening act for Lincoln Brewster…which took place this past Sunday, October 25, 2009 at Northside Baptist Church through CNY Crossroads (
www.cnycrossroads.com). It was amazing and humbling to be able to play at a venue that was sold out with over 700 people in one place…the largest crowd I’ve ever played in front of! And I so thoroughly enjoyed the experience of being able to work on a handful of songs over a longer period of time and fine-tuning them till pretty solid. Needless to say, I’m quite tired these days and today, I found myself sniffling a bit – so I hope I don’t get sick!!

Aaaand, Back to App Stuff: Anyways – I’m just so glad to have persisted and persevered in the completion of my application to Student Venture. I so greatly appreciated the depth and breadth of the questions that were asked of me in the application. It’s a lot of work, but it’s been such a wonderful thing for me to go through because as I answer their questions about my doctrinal beliefs, background information and family dynamics, my employment and educational history, my ministry experience and more, I’ve learned a lot of things about myself. Truthfully, I’d never really stopped to do a “self-evaluation” of where I’ve come from and who I’ve become in Christ. It was great to be able to take the time to get to know myself better through these guided questionnaires.

“The Past;” a.k.a. Scary stuff: I must confess, though, that the Moral Convictions Questionnaire was a bit scary in some ways because it forced me to really think about how I approach some touchy subjects like boundaries and relationships between guys and girls, past messes and slip-ups, or my own “skeletons in the closet.” Admittedly, there was a part of me that still felt like I wanted to cover up my past and not have to air it out again. However, I knew that the only way to give God glory for healing and bringing me out of a messy past was to acknowledge it, and acknowledge the mercy and grace He’s shown me in spite of my mess. So, I wrote honestly in the application and prayed hard for God to do with it all what He will so as to bring Him the most glory in the end. All I know is that God has a purpose for every little thing that happens in our lives, as he’s promised. So, after completing the questionnaire with much prayer and care, I still thank God for this because it’s been a great way for me to revisit a lot of things God’s taught and shown me as he’s been delivering and fixing me up!

In Closing, (Finally!): At long last, once I looked over the application multiple times over the past few weeks, I came to the point where I no longer felt like I was forgetting something or not clearly answering a particular section/question. Being a bit of a perfectionist sometimes who can get hung up on specifics and details, it was hard to let go and stop tweaking the application and just finish it and get it out. However, I’m feeling at peace about how it all ended up and what I’ve included in there. It’s crazy how much I’ve prayed for God’s direction, longed for something to change, and now that somethin
g seems to be happening, I see how scary change can be at the same time as being so refreshing. Does that make sense at all?! It’s like I’ve finally gotten a drink of water and see over the hill to the open door – only to be a bit afraid that it’s not actually gonna happen and worry the door’s gonna close. You know what I mean? Kind of like when I have to fly to a new destination and I can hardly believe I’m going to get to go – and part of me only believes it when I touch down and arrive at that destination. *sigh* Oh, unbelief – be gone from me!

All 7 of my references should be in or on their way, and now that I’ve sent my application to headquarters’ human resources department, all I can do now is wait, pray, and trust in the Lord’s plans. In a way, because one never really knows how things will end up, I feel like I can’t fully celebrate about this open door until I get the approval and even go through the support raising process itself…but that won’t stop me from praising God anyways every step along the way. Regardless of what happens, I know I’ve already learned so much more about myself, about who I am as a Christian, and what a staff position with Campus Crusade/Student Venture and/or missionary job might be like. It’s not so foreign after all or out of the question for me to be considering missions work…which is amazing because I remember, many years ago when I was still a teenager, being resistant to ever considering missions work. But I distinctly remember being literally physically compelled by the Holy Spirit to go get prayed for and anointed with oil when the speaker did an alter call for anyone who might have missions in their future. I thought it was crazy and I’d never do missions work, but still found myself drawn up to the altar. I thought it would mean I’d be going to Africa, or elsewhere and living a modest life doing what? – I wasn’t sure. And now , here we are!

Just Keep Praying, Praying, Praying: I’m trying not to think too far ahead while thi
nking ahead a bit too – I still have to deal with putting in my resignation in the future, looking into part-time employment during support-raising season, moving from my apartment to my parents’ house again, and the continued process of trusting God in new, challenging, scary and yet exciting ways. But, regardless, God is so great! I can only look forward with anticipation and excitement as He unfolds the next chapter and season in my life. I hope and pray that whatever it entails, I’ll continue to bring Him joy and glory in everything.

Thank you for your encouragement and prayers…I’m so grateful for the chance to keep you in the loop and hear from you about what’s going on in your life too. Please do write me anytime at
gahlai@gmail.com. I hope and pray you are well.

Till next time, blessings to you!
Kar-Lai

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Update: "God's Still Calling!"

So, I have continued to pray and seek God's heart and direction as I work on completing the application. While it's been difficult to carve out time in the midst of a very highly busy travel season at work and with the outside activities I'm involved in, completing the application and seeking God's confirmations has been on my mind all the time. What's great is that lately, oftentimes, my daily devotions and scripture readings, a few circumstances and friends' statements have been re-confirming for me that this is the door God is still leading me to walk through.

I actually just finished a phone call with the director, Warren Bane, tonight that encouraged me greatly and I felt the Holy Spirit stirring within me, re-confirming again in that inexpressible way that the door is still open and "calling out to me". All I can say is, although things are gaining momentum and going well in Syracuse and part of me longs to stay, I keep sensing and hearing in my heart that God is calling me to more than just the good that's happening now - He's calling me to follow Him into things that are beyond what I can see or imagine at this time. I'm still trusting in Him and though I don't know what this kind of change or move will entail or result in, all I know is that as God's calling me, I want to follow and not miss the opportunity to see His plans come to fruition as I obey. Warren was very positive about me continuing to be a "shoo-in" great addition to their organization, and likened my candidacy to that of the potential SU student that is a straight A, very actively involved and top candidate that doesn't need that extra "I'm pulling for this student" advocating statement by the recruiter. =)

So - I'm nearly done with my application and really hope to get it finished before another week goes by. As soon as all the references and my application are in, they will be able to render a decision on it relatively quickly. Then, and only then, will I be able to finalize my decision by telling my boss at work and give my month's notice while working out the details about how much longer I'll work while prepping for the January 5 week training period and support-raising season.

In the meantime, I'm continuing to try and give my best at work and serve God in the workplace with excellence. I traveled to Boston, MA last week and am (happily!) on my way to San Francisco, CA this weekend to spend the week there doing high school visits and conducting student interviews.

Thank you in advance for your thoughts and prayers. Please let me know how you're doing too! =)

Love in Christ,
Kar-Lai

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Visiting Student Venture Headquarters (Orlando, FL)


Can I just say how great God is?! I was able to fly down to Orlando, FL on Sunday (9/21) to meet with the headquarters staffon Monday (9/22) for a tour, staff meeting, and interview. I wanted to write a more detailed message to you describing the events of the day and what my thoughts were after it was all done. As always, I value your opinions greatly and encourage you to let me know your thoughts as you hear me share about this whole process and opportunity. As you all know, I am quite verbose...so please bear with me as I share...or at least make sure you have a chunk of time set aside to read this mini-novella of an update...hehehe. =)
I was quite nervous beforehand and didn't really eat much for the two days. After waking up quite early at the hotel I stayed in, I got a ride from Warren Bane (the Director of National Recruitment) to the headquarters and was thoroughly amazed at the beauty of the "campus" itself. There were mini lakes, essentially, with fountains and a vast expanse of fields and trees surrounding the two to three very large buildings that resembled mini-White-Houses. I got a quick tour of the inside of the buildings and was introduced to several staff here and there. There was a staff meeting at 10 and I was happy to sit in on it.

What was so refreshing was how the staff took time to pray before their meeting, lifting up prayers to God as they remembered staff out in the field and people who are raising support to become full-time staff members, and prayed for God's hand to be upon them all as they seek to do His will. After the meeting, I was able to sit with Warren and Mike, another Leadership Development National Director, over lunch. I got a nice overview of the heart and vision of the organization and later sat in on a phone call to Google before having my interview with two other staff members, Lauren & Andy. Again, I was overjoyed when they prayed with me before the interview...it put me at ease; the interview went for about an hour and a half, and I was very comfortable during it and able to answer all their questions well.
Basically, here's what I wrote down during my flight back to Syracuse (so it'd be fresh after such a full day) that encouraged me:

1) The spiritual environment is beyond encouraging. There are countless ways and opportunities to receive training, be stretched, learn more about your giftings and how to be spiritually healthy and continue to grow in faith and fruitfulness. They even give you 1 day per month to take off and spend the day with God, get spiritually re-energized...or even just whenever a break is really needed, they'll encourage you to take, like, a prayer break during the day or something!

2) The physical space is amazing! So open, colorful, aesthetically pleasing, condusive to collaborative team work. Very different from the very unpleasant space we use at SU for review...seriously, I almost went crazy in that one small room with white walls and, what, 20 people in it during application review season?!

3) I had a list of questions I'd written out the night before and all of them were answered during the day without my even really having to ask about them!

4) There is much room for growth and movement into any direction and ministry area within this organization because it's so large and has so many facets. I'm totally psyched about this because, instead of having nowhere to go up or around (like at SU), there are many possibilities with this organization...and they encourage it! They say that if they see your gifts and skills being better used in a different area that you'd love more, they'll encourage you to go there...rather than people trying to keep you somewhere just because they need something from you.

5) They do things to make sure staff and their families can connect, communicate and socialize together so as to build a sense of "Family" overall.

6) My interview was about 1 hr 30 min, and we covered a lot of what I've already been prepping via filling out the application...so that was a relief! Praise God =)

7) My role on staff would be to identify potential future staff from various pools, follow and track them through their process of considering joining Student Venture placements around the country, and be available during their search to guide, listen, and encourage them. I'd probably have the freedom to define my position and duties/parameters too as they're open to that. I also might have the chance to work directly with high schoolers too, mentoring/discipling them if that's what I'm interested in.

Once I finish my application and send it in with my 7 recommendations, they'll review it asap even before Nov 1 and tell me if I'm pre-approved, which basically means I'm approved and "in." That will be my green light to proceed with giving my 1 month notice to SU because I'll have to go to the 5 week training session in January and I don't want to miss any of that! During training, I'll be able to send out the official announcement to everyone I know to tell them I'm joining Student Venture and I'll start building up my network of Ministry Partners and raising funding and support. When I've raised all my necessary monthly funding, I will be a full-time staff member and move down to FL where they have people to help me find housing and get situated.

Overall, I felt a great sense of peace and excitement as I went through the day. I kept thinking to myself, "I would love to work here!" There were many things that were positives, and not many that were negatives other than things that I am nervous about (like raising support)...but even those are nothing because if God's calling me to this, I belive He will provide and this is a way He's helping me to grow my faith and trust in Him. I'm still feeling good about things and haven't seen/learned anything that would be a deal-breaker for me. I still have some questions that are in the process of getting clarified, but the bottom line is I can see myself thriving professionally and spiritually there, getting discipled and being used more fully than how I'm being used now at SU. I don't see the door closing at all yet, even when I'm faced with the daunting task of raising support (I'll have to raise money for both the training time and monthly too) or relocating.

In weighing the costs of leaving Syracuse now that I've finally felt more invested and involved, I see that starting anew with Student Venture and Florida would mean I'd gain many more opportunities to grow overall and be more effective in the long run for the bigger picture of God's plans. I understand that God will continue the work he's begun in Syracuse even if I'm not here...but it's a hard decision in some ways because I've just begun to get rooted here! But, I told God I'd go wherever He'd send me and that I would trust His plans, not mine. =)

It's interesting because in the past, when I'd interviewed for other jobs last year, there was always something holding me back from saying I'm passionate and excited about those jobs. With this job, it's the opposite - I am confident I believe in the mission, vision, purpose and values of this organization and because it's all for God's glory, I am certain I can say I'd be passionate about it! I feel it in me, but I've been hesitating to say it out loud - "It's confirmed; God is calling me to Florida!" I don't know what's keeping me from saying it...but perhaps I'm waiting for that last peice - the application approval. So, I'm going to try my hardest to complete my application as soon as possible.

In closing, here are the photos from my visit to Student Venture/Campus Crusade for Christ International,Inc. headquarters in Orlando, FL on 9/22/09:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=121247&id=580456650&l=a228b3a645

Thank you again for your continued support and prayers! I'll keep you posted as things progress...

Many blessings to you,
Gahlai

"Lemme call you back…God’s calling on the other line!”

(An update on my life so we can keep in touch…)My dear friends,

First, I apologize for not keeping in touch so well with you! I hope this message finds you in good health and doing well. You may or may not have known that I have been earnestly praying and seeking God for career direction for the past 2-3 years; I’ve felt ready for something different for quite some time now. I knew I was learning a lot at my current job, but there was always something missing that kept me from feeling that “click” in my Spirit that said this is what I would give my life to do all the time! Last year, I’d actually interviewed for several other jobs on the college campus that were related to recruiting for a specific program. While I was always one of the top 2 candidates, the other person always got the job…and I never really felt myself getting fired up about those jobs. In the meantime, I was getting more and more active in ministry related activities in and outside of the workplace, and I was learning to have a greater love for God so that Christ was taking over more facets of my life and being. Realizing that I have become a great recruiter for my employer, I found myself also realizing that I can and should be an even more effective recruiter for Christ.

Back in June, I’d visited my sister in Korea (she’s teaching English out there) and was able to meet up with my friend Amber, who’s now pastoring a church plant out there in Seoul. I did some music ministry with her and got to meet and hang out with the young adults she ministers to. That really got me interested in missions work as I seriously considered joining her in her ministry there in Korea. So, upon returning to Syracuse, I looked again at a web site my friend Liz had mentioned back in October of 2008 –
www.rightnow.org. It’s a site that is like the Craig’s list of missions opportunities. I browsed through their postings (part time, full time, short/long term missions opportunities), bookmarked a bunch, and finally filled out a profile for myself and submitted it to the RightNow people so they could connect me with a missions coach. My coach, Heather T., was able to talk with me and recommend 4 organizations that would be a good match for my interests and giftings. She reached out to those organizations and told them of my interest in their ministry work, and within 1 week, 3 of the 4 organizations contacted me back. The last one was the one I was most interested in, so it worked out well that I was both busy that month and not as interested in the other 3 because the last one, Student Venture, finally got back to me after a month – which is when I finally had a break in my workload to focus on this stuff again! I ended up speaking with Warren B., the National Director of Recruitment for Student Venture (www.studentventure.com), which is the jr/sr high branch of Campus Crusade for Christ, Inc. (www.campuscrusadeforchrist.com). The position is a full-time staff position with the national headquarters as…guess what…a Recruitment Specialist!! Which is exactly what I’m doing now, but it would merge my passion and love for God with my professional life as I seek to recruit new staff members to join and work in the field to mentor, disciple, and train up high schoolers to be solid in their walk with the Lord.

As I think and pray more and more about it, it’s almost as if God was leading and preparing me for this possible new job ever since I was a teenager: I was the quintessential example of why it is of utmost importance to have something like Student Venture around in high schools to disciple and ground young people in their knowledge of and relationship with Christ. As a teen in high school, I called myself Christian but I didn’t really live like I was in love with Jesus – I was just coasting by. I was lukewarm and under the radar both in school and when I went to church. I didn’t want to make any waves and so I didn’t “wear Christ” on my face and sleeve like I do now. But, like most young people, I thought that going to college would solve my problems and I’d finally “find myself.” Instead, because I wasn’t grounded in Christ, I sank into pit of all the things the world uses to tempt you to fall away from God. I firmly believe that, if I’d had someone mentoring me in high school and helping me to find my identity in Christ before I went to college, it would have been less likely for me to fail so miserably at everything as I tried to find happiness, purpose and acceptance apart from God.
As I pray, search God’s Word and consult with trusted Christian friends about this opportunity with Student Venture, I hear and believe more and more that this is God’s leading: in His grace and mercy, He is showing me that he can use what was my greatest shame and regret to bring Him glory by helping others avoid the same mistakes. So, in that sense, I identify very strongly with the mission, purpose, vision and values of Student Venture/Campus Crusade for Christ and see how this could be the way God combines my recruitment experiences with my past personal experiences.
Love,
Gahlai

*Next time…an update about my visit to Student Venture headquarters in Orlando, FL to meet with staff and have an interview!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

"Going Gahlai" when I should be sleeping...

Just like the title says, I'm blogging instead of sleeping...which isn't the best thing because I've got so many meetings tomorrow, I'm bound to fall alseep during one of them due to the lack of sleep I'm gonna get tonight!!

Hahaha...but, it's worth it to get this thing going. I'm really hoping to use this blog to keep all of you updated on what's going on in my life. This already has been a year of many changes, and I'm currently praying through and moving forward into possible new changes. I know this sounds very nebulous right now, but I'll explain later.

For now, I hope and pray you are well!

Love,
Gahlai